Sunday, February 28, 2010

My Heavenly Father Loves Me..He loves all of Us!!!

Nick wrote a nice letter this week and it got me thinking that I should probably focus on more things in my life than work and the house. I thought I'd share a thought I had the other week. I hope I worded it to get my message across...sometimes I'm not that good with words. I was going to have my paper editor (Alyson) edit it but it seemed silly so here you go.

A few weeks ago mom and dad were down for the weekend to help me with the house. As they were leaving we were giving our good-bye hugs and dad started telling me how happy he was that I got this house and that I really deserved it (something to that effect) he said it with emotion and tears in his eyes (he was a little emotional that weekend I’m not really sure why). Anyhow it touched me as I was giving him a hug goodbye and truly felt that he was so excited/happy for me.

The next morning on my way to work I had the radio on and this song came on. As this song was playing I was singing along like I always do and I just started bawling. I’ll let you read the lyrics and then I’ll explain where the bawling came into play.

Artist: Jason Michael Carroll lyrics
Song: Hurry Home lyrics

He's been sitting by the phone since she left
But it's time for work and he just can't be late
So he grabs his old guitar
And he plays a couple bars on the machine
And then he softly sings

Chorus
It doesn't matter what you've done, I still love you
It doesn't matter where you've been, you can still come home
And honey if it's you, we've got a lot of making up to do
And I can't hug you on the phone, so hurry home

Well the message light was blinking when he got back
It was an old friend calling cause he just heard the news
He says Man I hope you find her
If I see her I'll remind her that her dad is worried
And want her to know

Chorus
It doesn't matter what you've done, I still love you
It doesn't matter where you've been, you can still come home
And honey if it's you, we've got a lot of making up to do
And I can't hug you on the phone, so hurry home

Well the days dragged by without a word from her
And it looked like she might not be coming back
People said man don't you think it's time to take that old message off
He said no, you never know when she might call

She was just outside a bar in New York City
Her so-called friends had left her all alone
She was scared he wouldn't want her
But she dialed up that old number and let it ring
And then she heard him sing

Chorus
It doesn't matter what you've done, I still love you
It doesn't matter where you've been, you can still come home
And honey if it's you, we've got a lot of making up to do
And I can't hug you on the phone, so hurry home

He walked in just in time to hear her say
Dad, I'm on my way

I have always had a testimony of our Father in Heaven and Jesus Christ for as long as I can remember. I have always known that they love me. Right after my divorce when I moved back home Alyson had a picture of Christ up in our room (the Gentle Healer…my personal favorite). This picture gave me a lot of strength and comfort on those days when I felt so awful. The first time I had a really strong experience and received without a doubt a testimony that my Savior knows me personally and knows the trials and feelings I am going through was after my divorce and I had moved to Portland. I went down there the first week by myself and left Alyssa home so I could find daycare and get things set up. I had never felt so alone and in total despair…it is hard to describe the place that I was in but it wasn’t good. When I would remember that picture I felt his love and that despair lessened. Each day it got better and better as I truly felt his love and empathy for me. Although I have always had a testimony it is always hard to really apply my love for dad and his love for me to my love for my Heavenly Father and his love for me. My dad on this earth is tangible..he is and has always been there for me, it is hard to feel the same with something not tangible. As I was thinking about the lyrics of this song on my way to work I had a moment when the connection came to me so clearly and I was really able to feel and apply the love I share with my earthly father to that of my Heavenly Father. I know that no matter what choice I make in this life dad will welcome me with open arms. I know that he is always cheering and praying for me and that it is the same with our Father in Heaven.

No matter how poorly I do at doing everything I am suppose to do I can always do better and that my Father in Heaven will be just like dad…crying for me when I receive my home in heaven.


2 comments:

Hillfivesome said...

That was beautifully put Kristin. You have always had special place in my heart. Even when I left Hermiston you were always in my heart. When your divorce happened I was heart broken for you. Yes your Heavenly Father Loves you so much and so does your earthly father and mother. I think you have two of the neatest parents in the world and I love them. Take care and call me sometime ok 720-876-1049. I think you and Alyssa need to come out to Denver and stay a few days and then go see Doug. Just a thought.

Sharon said...

What a great thought. Thanks for sharing. Miss you guys.